Today is the first day of Christmas Break! woohoo XDD my birthday is in 13 days, and i will be legal. gonna buy some porn and cigs. jk. Cannot believe this is my last year in high school. it feels so freaking surreal. Just finished reading Crushed. It is a really lovely book, i love how the authors are married and write together. ^_^ I'm obsessed with Kdrama and Kpop. hehe i'm such a dork! gee gee gee...
Yesterday was the day of "Love". Mine started out pretty nicely. Gifted with a bag of chocolates from my mother along with a cute Hello Kitty marshmallow pop. :3 My boyfriend arranged for us to go out to eat and sure enough, i was excited. This would be my official, real, Valentines Day with a significant other. Though it was supposed to be a 'dinner" thing, i assumed it would be around 6 or 7. I went out to eat with my mom and brother around 3 and go to Blockbuster...blahhh.. Arriving home around 4 o'clock, i texted him to find out what time he was going to pick me up so i could 'primp' (who says that word?) and do my hair. After 5 minutes, he called me. Here's the conversation
Me: Hey, whats up? Him: Are you ready? Me: Ready for what? It's only four Aren't we going much later? Him: I changed my mind Me: You can't just change things whenever You want to. Him: I can.
This conversation led to more arguing. He kept infuriating me so much, that i decided i was going to press his buttons. He knew what my 'breaking point' was and without avail, he brought it up. By blaming me and declaring that i started the entire fight, he wanted me to apologize. Accordingly, i am the one who always has to apologize and i do, just so he will be happy. But i refused to do so. I told him that he started the entire mess and that i have nothing to apologize for. Of course he knew i was angry because i threw in a little f-bomb and what do you know? He got madder. "Dont you dare cuss at me" "You can't tell me what i can or can't do" "I SAID, don't cuss at me" and so forth.. For about almost another hour, he insisted it was my fault. Later a silence of almost 20 minutes with silence, he spoke. "Well," he said with a sigh and a tone of exasperation, "It was my fault, I'm sorry." I knew from the get go that he apologized just because he knew that was what i wanted to hear. I told him i didn't believe him. "Well, I'm not sure that I even want to be with you anymore." "Alright then." "Bring the jacket on Monday. I want it back."
The day before, i was given a jacket with Hello Kitty of course, as an early Valentine's Day gift. I assured him i would and i hung up on him. Needless to say, i was angry and i needed to vent. I wrote a text to my best friend, and i accendientaly sent it to the wrong person. After i rejected a few calls, i finally picked up. He apologized, i said i forgave him and i said good-bye. "Let's just forget it ever happened, okay?" he says. I said, "You can, but i'm not."
